A little something I should have said earlier
Haallooo
Vidhyaaa!!
I have something I should have said earlier...
I know I'm late.
Hmko pehle hi tmhare paas aana chahiye tha.
10 din bohot zyada silence mein tha, jab bohot kuch unsaid reh gaya tha.
Maybe hmko nahi pata tha kaise start karein, aur shayad hm bohot zyada afraid the ki situation aur worse na ho jaye.
But ab hmko pata chal raha hai ki silent rehna hi sabse zyada cheezein worse karta hai.
I'm really sorry, Vidhya.
I'm really sorry Vidhya for hurting you.
I'm sorry jo bhi bole, jaise hm behave aur react kiye, aur tmko less loved, valued aur understood feel karwane ke liye.
Hm yahan apna explanation de bhi dein, toh usse tmhe kaisa feel hua woh change nahi ho jaane wala.
And I take all the responsibility and accountability for that.
Tm bohot zyada matter karti ho.
Vidhya, tm bohot zyada matter karti ho mere liye. Itna zyada ki hm aaj tak show nahi kar paye ho.
Tm mere everyday life ka ek part ho, aur aise ways mein jaise hm realise bhi nahi kar sakte.
Hmari random conversations, chugliya, aur backbitch karna. Randomly ek dusre ko pareshan karna. Aur woh saari baatein jo hmlog ne ki hain.
Aur yeh kuch din ka silence hmko realise karwa diya hai ki woh saari chhoti se chhoti memories matter karti hain aur mean karti hain mere liye.
Before everything became complicated,
there was us.
The little moments that still mean something to me.
Some memories don’t need a perfect picture. They just need to remind me of us.
Hmko pretend nahi karna ki hm right the.
Hmko pata hai hm mistakes kiye hain.
Hmko saara situation ache se listen karna chahiye tha instead of reacting.
Wo moments mein hmko tmhe samajhna chahiye tha instead of trying to make you understand me.
Aur hm un saare moments ke liye sorry feel karte hain.
Hm nahi bol rahe tm woh moments bhula do. But I want to do better with you and for you.
When you said you wanted to be apart, I heard you.
Us time tmhare heart aur mind mein kya kya chal raha hoga, hm imagine bhi nahi kar sakte.
Wo anger tha. Wo disappointment tha. Aur woh sab kuch jo build up ho raha tha.
Hmko un feelings ko unheard nahi karna chahiye tha.
Tmhara feeling heard hona deserve karta hai.
Tmhe abhi kuch decide karne ki zarurat nahi hai.
Hm nahi chahte tm kuch bhi abhi decide karo.
Hm nahi chahte ki tm kuch bhi bhul jao.
Hm yeh bhi nahi chahte ki tm hmko itna easily forgive kar do.
Hmko bas bolna tha jo hmko pehle karna chahiye tha, aur properly handle kar sakte the us situation ko.
Vidhya, agar kahin na kahin tumhare dil mein ek chhota sa bhi part hai jo hmlog ko saath chahta hai...
Toh hm chahte hain hm dono saath rahein.
Hm tumse ek aur chance nahi chahte. Hm tumhare saath hamesha rehna chahte hain, zindagi bhar ke liye.
Waise nahi jaise hm pehle the — balki usse bhi stronger aur better build karne ke liye.
Can we talk?↗Whenever you're ready.